There are many times when I feel like I'm just going along doing the life thing and God doesn't really seem to be involved. It's not that He's not present or involved, He's just doing it quietly.
Let me give you a few background details. I work for the High School as a Para. This means that I get paid by the house (if I don't work, I don't get paid). That means certain months of the year I get paid less than expected. Take December for example. We have two weeks of December off from school for Christmas Break. It's a nice break from school, but it also means that the paycheck is half what it usually is.
For some reason our PSI (Personal Support Income), which is Dan's paycheck, was also half what it usually is.
1/2 Carey's Check + 1/2 Dan's Check =
CAREY FREAKS OUT!!!!!!!
You all know what it's like paying bills, budgeting the leftovers for food and gas and such. And now I was not sure we could pay all the bills and have any leftover for the other essentials. I do not like being late on a payment for any reason. (I've become slightly paranoid about it lately)
However, as the month went on, and I tried to figure out how we could swing this month, I realized that i had paid all the bills for Jan in December. I was an entire month ahead!
Even with less than the usual in each category, for food and gas, etc: we still didn't use all the money in each category.
Other months, we tend to use all the money in the categories. However, we didn't go over budget anywhere.
The only thing I can chalk it up to is God. God provided for all those circumstances to add up and come out on top! So was there really a need for me to freak out? As Paul says, "By no means!"
Last night I had an epiphany.
Let me give you a few background details. I work for the High School as a Para. This means that I get paid by the house (if I don't work, I don't get paid). That means certain months of the year I get paid less than expected. Take December for example. We have two weeks of December off from school for Christmas Break. It's a nice break from school, but it also means that the paycheck is half what it usually is.
For some reason our PSI (Personal Support Income), which is Dan's paycheck, was also half what it usually is.
1/2 Carey's Check + 1/2 Dan's Check =
CAREY FREAKS OUT!!!!!!!
You all know what it's like paying bills, budgeting the leftovers for food and gas and such. And now I was not sure we could pay all the bills and have any leftover for the other essentials. I do not like being late on a payment for any reason. (I've become slightly paranoid about it lately)
However, as the month went on, and I tried to figure out how we could swing this month, I realized that i had paid all the bills for Jan in December. I was an entire month ahead!
Even with less than the usual in each category, for food and gas, etc: we still didn't use all the money in each category.
How does that happen?
Other months, we tend to use all the money in the categories. However, we didn't go over budget anywhere.
How does that happen?
The only thing I can chalk it up to is God. God provided for all those circumstances to add up and come out on top! So was there really a need for me to freak out? As Paul says, "By no means!"
God has it all under control. I waste my energy and emotions freaking out when my plan doesn't go exactly as I plan. You think I would have learned this by now. I seem to have this epiphany a few times a year. But God is patient with me. So the patient, sometimes quietly working God had my back again. Faithful he is.
Thank God.
